I prayed a lot yesterday.
Prayers and tears to our Father, for a child I did not know personally, but who I wanted to comfort. Prayers for a family I might not meet, but my faith grew because of theirs.
Malachi had finished up with Chemo, but became very sick with a bacterial infection and was not doing well.
I prayed for healing and recovery.
I fully believe that God is capable of these things 100 times over. I also prayed that He heal Malachi if it was His will. God is so much bigger than we can comprehend, yet we sometimes "forget" this. He guided the doctors and He caused Malachi's Lukemia go into remission. He could just blink and the infection would be gone.
While I prayed, there was something that I felt within me, it was like I already knew. I'm not sure why, but I seemed to "know" that God wanted Malachi to be with Him.
This is from his parents -
"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, will award me on that day--and not only me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.
2 Timothy 4:7-8
Malachi Thomas Schaefer did just that. He fought the good fight, he finished the race, and he kept the faith. Now on the 19th day of June, 2007 he quietly passed on to receive his crown of righteousness. We thank you all for your prayers as Malachi fought his battle against AML. Please keep praying for our family as we endure his loss."
I'm not angry, and I don't think Malachi's parent's are either. Are they hurting? Yes, more than I can imagine. I think they have, and will continue to grow stronger because of this.
The only words I can think of at this time are, faith, God, trust, love, bond, family...
My heart aches for them.
4 thoughtful comments:
I know how you feel. On the top of the list of things I do not understand, why children die is probably number one. But I'm not God, and I know His will is supreme. I think I knew, too, when I was praying for Malachi on Tuesday that God wanted him home. It just hurts so bad. Thanks for honoring him here and sharing your thoughts. His family still needs lots of our prayers.
Gosh, I cannot imagine losing Claire or Taylor. The thought of it brings tears to my eyes and an ache to my heart. My prayers are with the family.
To lose a child would be unimaginable. But to see my own child in such pain and discomfort would be unbearable. I think it's this that allows strong parents to let their children go to be with their Father.
My heart aches for them, too. gah.
xo,
Ann (aka: yerdoingitwrong)
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